no one understands.


blogging shall be cease till my heart gets some relief.

July 7th 2008

I really can't possibly list every single book I've read. I have given like almost 200 away when my Mum ordered the clearup of my book collection. Painful. 

July 8th 2008

Nancy Wake - How can anyone be this strong in mind and body? It is just super amazing and inspiring actually.

1. It has become a blister! Fuck. There is some random blob protruding from my leg. It is so ugly I am NOT going out.
2. I ate too many longans. I can't feel my throat anymore. Coughing like an old lady does not help too.
3. My stomach feels queer.
4. Apartment hunting has given full blown headache.
5. I wanna just sleep till I start work.

It scares me more than I expected. I probably shelved it at the back of my head in my consciousness. However, when I am asleep, dreams carrying scenes and themes of separation comes up. A little too often. 

What if everything changes when I am back?

I just read through several travel blogs. Pictures of Spain and Croatia came up. Gorgeous places which probably serve as the backdrop to pages of history penned down in leatherbound books. These lands feature architecture and sceney described in storybooks that used to drive me mad with fascination. I imagine medieval knights and ladies, horses and cobblestone roads. Rich broths and savoury dishes made from recipes created so long ago. The peasants bustling about in the marketplace, going about with their daily lives while the noblemen and aristocrats sip tea and dance. When will I be able to step into these fairytale lands which seem so enchanting. When will I finally leave this little piece of rock crammed with establishments which bear no inkling to the past? Glass windows and solar panels, what do they tell? These buildings can never bring about the sense of exhilaration you will feel when you are in Europe. The awe. Amazing. 

I have absolutely nothing to do today! 
SPAIN WON!
I love fernando torres! He has a new haircut! CUTE!
I likey David Silva too. 
HAHAHAHA.

For some reason, the most important lesson I have learnt from this job is...
MONEY can determine everything.

Being jobless never ever feels this good.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAHA.
I can't believe I survived this shit.
:D two more days.
JOKE.

I miss him alot. We've hardly gone out together properly since I started work. So, I am not the only one who is annoyed with my job as it seems. Tmr, I shall scoot off work on time and ignore any dingdangdong that takes place after six. Maybe I should cook him bacon fried rice, my latest specialty! :) Hmmm. In the past many many years, we've never had this problem. Or had we just took the time we had together for granted, assuming that the other will always be around. Has my exchange led to this evolution of our relationship? Or the possibility of him going away made me realise that we have to treasure every moment together.  

ilubnd. alwys. xoxo, V.

The nice sweet Italian Government has decided to give me.......... my scholarship!!! I won't be living on bread and butter in Milan! YAY! :) I won't know the exact details till Wednesday, so until then.

HOHO.

I had Char Kway Teow for lunch. Waraku for dinner. and went to Azabu Soba for dessert. I'm so alarmed at my appetite that I've decided to go to the gym tmr after work.

Shat. Wrong decision again. And I'm going mad because of it. I feel stupider and lousier than before. Thanks job. You make me feel like I know myself. 

Ok. Think I should just quit. QUIT QUIT QUIT. I think I will. Hahahah.